Loss

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Dear Monty,



The truth is we are all losing, perhaps that is why we get so angry with the world ?
Loss is a painful thing.

We lose time - we cannot slow it or stop it.

We grow older day by day second by second.
We lose vitality and function,
We lose lovers, friends, parents, siblings.
We cannot hold on to any material thing.

The garden is lost once the hands that created it become infirm
I lose plants to viruses,
And the view is lost to trees.

So how should I cope with the knowledge of loss ?
Live as much as is possible, appreciate that what we have is passing through our fingers. Appreciate relationships, friendships, souls.

I have to let go - even of all the things and people I love
I let go of hills, butterflies, blue sky, flag irises, trees
Heron
Bees
The sun
And stars.

Your thoughts are higher than mine
The hills will burst forth in song
I lose myself in peace.





Paul

Comments

  1. Anne Wareham26 July 2016 at 17:52

    Hmmm... if you can! Xxxxx

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    1. Paul Steer26 July 2016 at 20:04

      Undeniably difficult to do Anne, but I try to live like this as much as I can - and appreciating friendships more than ever. X

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